The art of acceptance is getting more, well…acceptable in my camp. This is sterling news I can tell you. Let me demonstrate how this transformation is manifesting right now; I’m sure you must have had this happen before too.
OK. I spent a bit of precious time today writing out a long comment on a blog and before I posted it in the final adjustments it just disappeared; I mistakenly clicked a random link somewhere, and lo and behold the work is gone. After all that work I was, well, a little annoyed but the beautiful thing was that I came straight on here and started writing. I’ve decided to use that energy of frustration positively and do something right away. I might even create a page right now, listing all the things I was going to put on the comment. How about that? Why is that amazing?
Well the thing is that I know how I would have reacted a year ago; bellowing and hitting my palms on the desk or some other such over-reaction. It certainly wouldn’t have been that calm!
I am now starting to believe that the changes I’ve made recently, most especially in my diet, are transforming my reactions as well as just my body composition!
This is surprising considering I’ve only been ‘Primal’ for a couple of months now. No, I take it back; this is truly amazing! The scientist in me is doing cartwheels for I can now see solid results with my own eyes on levels beyond the physical. It seems that there is more to the Carbohydrate addiction than meets the eye.
For instance, our little boy is so much calmer without the processed apple syrup covered rice cakes and other ‘treats’ that we used to rely on to ‘calm him down’ or appease him. Now I can see we were unwittingly keeping him on a grain and fructose induced sugar high that was sending his little head spinning and therefore making his behaviour reasonably uncontrollable. We only noticed it when it (his brain) was running out of fuel!! This is a child who has been brought up on practically no sugar (we thought!). God only knows what other kids are like on fizzy drinks and the like! I mean this was a humble rice cake or ten!
Sometime things are not meant to happen in the way we think they should, and that’s the inevitable part of life that the ‘angry’ perfectionist will just not accept.
Now I can see that the fuel I was choosing was not only ‘feeding’ this destructive tendency, but actively joining the dots to make it an explosive outlet for pent up and excessive ‘backlog’ of energy that was not being used constructively.
Now I no longer feel driven or ambitious, but I do feel inspired and productive!
Now I no longer feel I’m fighting my way through treacle town, but I do now feel muscles working in my legs and a fleetness of foot previously unknown.
Now I no longer feel myself fatigued by social encounters, but I do feel energized and excited in a nice way.
Can all this happen because of a change of diet? Well yes. They say you are what you eat. If you eat quick burning fuel (sugar, starch) then you’re going to be what ever you already are, but quicker. It turns out I was always quick, despite what my art teacher thought!!
Ahem. Excuse me…
My point is that I still get angry like normal people do, however, there is a shift in quality. It is now somehow grounded, almost ironic if you know what I mean, and also strangely humorous! In other words, when I catch myself ‘being angry’ I can see my inner Buddha nodding and chuckling. This is such a transformation.
My rage of before used to be searing, dangerous and downright depressing in it’s desire to destroy and inflict pain. I have never felt so relieved to see a part of me transform than this.
So no, sometimes when things go ‘wrong’ we must remember that things are destined to go wrong (for this is Samsara remember!) but let it not be us that is the thing going wrong eh? That isn’t the way it’s supposed to be at all! We are supposed to stand in the field of life with our hair dangling in the wind as we walk between the tracks of wheat we will never eat, simply enjoying the walk and the feel of nature about us.
The art is in letting it go and changing your track…then keep on walking!
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Photo Courtesy of Belovodchenko Anton