a dark and brooding face appears patterned with dull colour third eye is very active model phoebe thomasson photo art by adam white photography dorset uk 2015

Here it is again….Low Pressure: A Poem “Black Dog and The Widow”

This pain, not physical so no one can see
it’s why I wear a glum face for lunch
depression my guest today
welcome in I say
I feel I have no choice
but to let her in and have her way
the black dog
comes and throws up
over the carpet
barking at me the details
of how sad my life is
no recourse to the facts
are they the real reality anyway?
I cannot tell
the black dog is large
and taking up all my attention
I am angry but feel powerless
drained of vitality
it only took thirty minutes to arrive
destination overcast
when outside the sun beats
spring cool breeze coiling
I should feel happy
shouldn’t I?
the black dog looks up
her owner I spy in the corner
she’s dressed in black
perennial widow of the world
she’s the voice and persona
of scornful mourning
beyond reasoning
she laughs and agrees
yes your world is so sad
so sad you shall be.
No! I think
I run to the computer
my thoughts ordered by print
it’s logic that I need
she leaves sashaying
whistle between teeth
black dog follows
leaving a small pile of hair
on the sofa.
Gone, for now
she’ll be back
with black
am I prepared?

P. Thomasson
11th April 2015

image of a mans face with slightly deranged eyes title fragile brain pen and ink sketch with words by uk contemporary artist phoebe thomasson

It may be Hellish, but at least I’m here!

Recovery isn’t all about getting better. It’s also about adjusting, changing, accepting and releasing. We can need multiple processes to happen before we start to feel better in the way we desire to.

Just to give you an idea how this applies in the real world here is an insight into my current little drama.

Somehow, due to numerous factors I’ve manage to put my back out good and proper. I’ve been to the chiropractor and there is a loosening in process. I think in terms of blocked energy because after years of practical healing and recovery from multiple things, I now know it counts, and is real. Think life force/prana/chi or whatever vibes with you.

OK. So I identified my little psychological process that has been activated into my awareness. Here it is and goes something like this.

  • long term illness means you are cut off from previous modes of functioning.
  • we adjust our world accordingly and create our own alternatives.
  • life becomes a reflection of our ‘own little world’.
  • we recover! yay!
  • we come up against the need to ‘re-enter’ the rest of the world or the ‘real’ version of it.
  • we resist because we quite like it here.
  • we know this world and have lost the ability to be anything else so why not just stay?
  • we create something else to distract us from the growth process.
  • more pain!
  • yay! pain works a treat…it’s a different part of the body which is quite a change, I think I can continue to be dysfunctional after all!
  • Wait a minute! did I just say that?
  • Goddam it…I’m going to beat this things too!
  • And so we strive….

Onward we go and heal the next malady. But did we stop to consider why we create all this hassle? Here’s one perspective, for when you are into having a philosophical musing…

I believe illness teaches us more about compassion, resilience, tenacity, honesty, strength, weakness, reaching out, friends, loved ones, family, challenges, love, life and humanity than being a super-I-never-get-sick kind of guy ever will.

My dad was one of those and within a year he was dead with Cancer.

I’m ok with my bad back thanks…at least I’m alive.


Sort your back out for free! Some effort required!

If you’ve found yourself in front of the screen a bit too much or dealing with stress over the festive season, your back may be suffering.

Mine is. I have to sort it out or no painting for me. Here is how I am doing it. This guy is lovely!

I found this post here at Marks Daily Apple which is really worth bookmarking for all your health info.

I’m also using yin yoga which you can find out more about here.

Other remedies include Olbas Oil and Magnesium Oil.

Pain relief from the freezer chest

Photo Credit: Jason Conlon

If like me you have had pain as your near constant companion throughout the years you will have tried many things. Today I’m going to talk about ice therapy for reducing inflammation and KILLING PAIN! YES!

Pain is generally due to inflammation which is the body’s protective mechanism for expelling foreign matter and intruders (including bits of yourself which is what Auto-Immunity is all about!). I’ve had chronic intestinal pain for about 20 years now and trust me I’ve tried everything to eliminate it. I am now getting to the crux of the matter which is partly due to understanding what the damage actually is, and how to correct it using various dietary approaches. Learn more about healing your gut with the autoimmune protocol here.

My main concern right now is helping you to achieve quick, safe and effective pain relief because unchecked, pain can lead to depression. I’ve experienced a lot of that over the years partly because I’ve felt so incredibly helpless in the face of this unresolved situation.


First up you will need some kind of ice pack. I use the ice bags which come in our meat box delivery. They stay in the freezer and recently I decided to try one out as when I’m having a flare up I’ve always sought the cold. I can’t tell you what a difference it has made.

OK so this is going to hurt a bit as the ice burns your skin. The good news is that ice shrinks fat cells so you will help to stop the slack bits in their tracks! That’s positive side effect number one! See Jack Kruse for more on Cold Thermogenesis here.

You will become accustomed to the cold after a while when the nerves have stopped going crazy. Adjust gradually to opening up the whole pack and when you are comfortable wrap a towel round you and chill. Literally!

What we are doing is arresting the effects of the inflammation by shutting down capillary circulation to the peripheral area.

After about ten or twenty minutes you should be feeling some relief if not a total remission of symptoms. However, the more belly fat you have, the longer you will probably need to use the ice.


And there you have it. Simple and effective and more importantly non-harmful to your body or your purse!

Be sure to pass this on to any one you know who is dealing with pain.


Disclaimer: Please follow safety instructions as I cannot be held responsible for misuse of this information.Thank you.


Photo Credit: Jason Conlon